“In Buddhism, the term anattā (Pali) or anātman (Sanskrit) refers to the doctrine of “non-self”, that there is no unchanging, permanent self, soul or essence in living beings.” -“Anatta,” Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anatta
Knowing at Fifty
Everything stems from a certitude that time is running out
…You use hourglass metaphors without a hint of irony
Cleaning electric razors upset you because there’s only white stubble
…You actually choose one side of the bed over the other
Sex is a rarely-visited, exotic destination
…you buy a selection of colognes as consolation.
Women won’t look back at you when you walk past
…so dogs become a sudden and unanticipated blessing
Your attention is directed to fallen leaves
…veiny and brittle
You pick up everyone else’s trash the flotsam/jetsam of more earnest (read “younger”) people.
You’re good with your hands in your pockets
…and fondly remember of telegraphs.
Younger People indulge you, each one of their smiles a charitable gift
…and so you smile back, gratefully.
Your wife doesn’t come to you when you call for her
…but yells “WHAT??!” from the other room.
A blessing is it to learn that “you” is, after all, lie
… so so good, to die the one and only true death.